EveOfTomorrow.

Learning2Multitask

2012-02-20T23:00:00.004+08:00

While waiting for my documents to get printed out, shall use this time to blog.
Well recently, it's getting tougher for me.
I don't think i can cope well and i have classmates who stress me out.
I need to dive into my notes now.
Here's a picture of Yuling and I, I miss my girl.

Because of studies, things are getting out of hand and i can't seem to control it well.
Screwwww my mind, i wanna get into House Exco, that badly.

I don't want to be just a follower

2012-02-18T14:59:00.005+08:00

I do blog when i feel like it, and yes now.
Another week of school has passed, beginning to love it yet hate it.
Squeezed with homework, and i've decided to go to the library today.
The place where i actually studied for O's.
Just feeling lazy to actually move.
*Praying for someone to carry me around* Okay, period.
Yeah lately, Brennan, my worst classmate, had been a real asshole for the past few days.
I don't like him, just saying.
I'm bored for the moment, getting over it.

Back to simplicity.

2012-02-11T22:21:00.004+08:00

Life isn't easy. To move on or to give up?
Yishun JC isn't elite, but it surely isn't that horrible.
Got allocated to a class with 8 girls, currently 9.
Cause Georgina transferred over.

Started reading through my syllabus a little, and got bored.
At least, i tried to understand a little.
I need to get back on my feet.
Go Ailyn, i'm sure you can do it.
Okay, back to the topic of YJ.

Still, I definitely do have wonderful friends and i wanna live peacefully ever after.
Why are we more bonded with our OG instead of our CTG?!
Anyway, I don't understand Ngee Ann Secondary, why do they not allow ex-students to enter?
I want to see those teachers who helped me in life.
Mr. Abu Bakar, i'll never forget.
Sorry, i'm fickled with subjects, I change topics fast.

XO.

2012-01-27T18:39:00.005+08:00

For some reason, I miss Deren, Daniel, Kevin, Alexus and Eeming.
Lolololol i miss Yuling.
Get well soon, lovely.
I miss Mr. Adrian Lim.
I miss Taiwan.
I miss Vishunu.
I miss getting caught by discipline masters.
I miss staying back for night study.
I miss Sahil and E (not to reveal his name).
I miss studying for O levels.
I miss late night rushes in school for D&T folio.
I miss Mr. Hazmi.
I miss the 4girls (Yunqi, excluded) I was stuck together with for 2 years.
But for now, I'm just looking forward to my future.
Be it JC/poly as my next step, I need to start moving on, independently.

Why do people walk away?

2012-01-27T00:26:00.003+08:00

Like because it doesn't matter to you and to me anymore.

I'm happy now, happy to know that no one ever trusts me.

4R2'2011

2012-01-21T19:35:00.003+08:00

Class chalet was awesomely memorable.
I had my fun, although there were quite a lot of awkward moments.
Yeah, apparently i was the only girl cause Yiying pangseh-ed me,
because she was "sick".
I will definitely miss them just like how i am missing those guys who used to be my friends.
And now, gone.

I will learn how to appreciate as time passes,
being young is an excuse, but still being real immature is the exact reason.
From there, i will then teach the people i know how to appreciate.
We're all taking things for granted.
I miss you guys.

LOVE YOU 4R2'2011, we made it through together.
Have a safe trip back, Rahim.

Lies make us feel better.

2012-01-18T10:38:00.004+08:00

Yes yes a few days without a phone is fine,
It's useless anyway.
But I realise I got class chalet tomorrow, stupid dick.
Omg house phone will do fine.

Tumblr

2012-01-15T13:11:00.001+08:00

Hey tumblr long time no see

Reason why i keep busy.

2012-01-15T12:42:00.003+08:00

Because you, are the reason.

Forever Alone.

2012-01-12T19:49:00.003+08:00

No one should ever love me I belong alone

It's about everyone else.

2012-01-07T00:18:00.001+08:00

This world isn't just all about you, Ailyn.
Grow some sense.

They pinch.

2012-01-04T12:11:00.002+08:00

Screw those flashbacks when I'm alone

I walked away, I can't come back.

2012-01-04T12:04:00.003+08:00

I still stalk you like I used to.
Get angry at the number of girls whom you are talking to.
I cannot regret, it's no mistake.
But a fucking wrong choice.
You seem happy, really happy.
I guess that's what I have to face, and to understand.
Imy.
But, I finally see that I'm not good enough.
We're not meant to be.

Ellery.

2011-12-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

Ellery, i need you now.
Sort me out, sort my thinking out, please.
if only you will see this.
I NEED YOU.

i love you.

2011-12-23T21:10:00.004+08:00

the 'miss you' feeling i have right now.
i gotta get some rest, tiring myself lately to act busy.
Cause i don't wanna get disappointment when no one asks me out.
Therefore.
i don't wanna be have a pretty appearance anymore.
i wanna be beautiful in my own way,
inside and out.
i should have someone who really loves me for who i really am.

it's you.

2011-12-18T23:02:00.001+08:00

Forced to leave, finally leaving.
This is absurd.
Where's your phone?

Ellery

2011-11-28T12:32:00.002+08:00

Ok I don't know where to begin. But everything sucks.
I really didn't expect you to do this.
Out of everyone, you did.
E, i'm disappointed but I guess you don't care anymore.
And so, my decision on leaving will never change.
Why am I being a retard, hoping for someone to care but no one actually will?

ORDINARY

2011-11-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

And so i realise, i'm just another ordinary girl patiently waiting for something that can lead me to an extraordinary experience. Who's with me?

LG _l_

2011-11-22T01:33:00.000+08:00

Life's not great, fuck.

Prom night

2011-11-21T23:09:00.011+08:00

Ok, Prom. Ok.

I realised my camera worked better with flash, so fuckkkkkkk
THERE :

Quanhao, the most decent guy (w/ the best handwriting in 4R2)
The guy whom the-long-gone-MrVincentLee asked me to woo instead of Kevin.
He said i should look for someone decent.
Cause this is the type who wouldn't leave me no matter how horribly i ill-treat them.
True?

Cool abit

Not paying attention, ellery.

There, not smiling again.

Cool hairstyle bro.

Here's the one whom i really look up to, i admire him, a lot.

He's migrating, sad right? I knoww i'm going2cry

My fun & immature class.

the always guailaning me one;

when he compliments me, sense the sarcasm.

My lower sec darling.

Sam Handsome Liang. My next idol after Kevin. #swear

My bestfriend's suitor weeeeeeeee

Intended to watch a movie after prom, but it was too late :(

JOELCHAN ^^

Then, joshua and I went off.

All ended up at Kallang Mac, afterall.

Ali Asgar #1.

#2. With his "so-called-unique" smile.

the cute boy of the night - 10 year old, Lampa Siang.

Dylan. HAH

#3. OMG. It's Ali, with the same smile.

Ryan's epic pose.

K that's all. Really that's all.

Wondering where's Kevin's one right?

Right? Right? Right?Right? RIGHT?

I know right.

I had stopped the Kevin's craze.

So i decided not to post it, shall keep it in my bin underneath my table

WOW. Right? Right? RIGHT?

I don't know, but i feel that i should.

So yeah, Kevin :(

Fuck bye, forever.
Kevin :(

So, who's Kevin?

Kevin :(

K i don't care whatever

KEVIN :( REALLY :(

Next up, trip to the zoo with Anil.

Stay tuned

Graduation'141011

2011-11-21T21:41:00.008+08:00

It's been long since i last posted.
So finally, here's the pictures from graduation day.

I don't know how to send these to Miss Rachel Poh.

Sean Nicholas, the tennis guy.

Here's Nasir, the guy whom i occasionally take 16 back with after night study.

Carolyn; the girl whom i envy a lot.

And Haadi, my night study buddy indeed.

Did i tell you this? She used to be my favourite senior.

CYC. Chew Yichen, those good lower sec days.

Jane, Muttiah, Denise. Yeah, we crazy girls.

This is Xinran, you know. I'm not close with him anymore.

I love this guy up there. My class, 4R2's angel ^^

My little brothers yeah hehe

Ok, 4R6 girls. Please don't point out that i'm the ugliest, thanks.

English and Social Studies teacher. Yeah, my 2 FAIL subjects.

Not trying to discriminate her teaching, IT'S REALLY NOT HER FAULT.

It's mine. I have no interest in them at all.

I love Miss Cheryl Tan.

There she is! Mdm Zarina. The one who is always there to comfort, to console me when i face troubles. (Especially when i'm late - at Detention corner)

This is my darling junior, Wanwen.

Blur-ed, fuck this camera.

Joel and his cheeky pose. He wanted to be sexy.

4 letters to describe - F.A.I.L.

Miss Rachel Poh. I really want to be like her next time.

The fashionable one and the fucking sexy one.

Catwalking around in school like nobody's business.

Teaching with poses and styles, capturing attention.

Wtf, "Model" Teaching eh?

Here's my on-and-off closefriend.

What do i mean by that?

I feel close to him.

Well, i don't, too, at times.

Yeah, he's damn cute and he sees through me.

He understands.
<3 <3 <3 for him yayyyy

the 3 musketeers whom i feel the most comfortable with in 4R2.

Aren't they cuteeee? hehe

never will i forget them.

Miss Tan Kexin;

My Vice Principal, but surprisingly feels like my sister.

Glad to have her around.

Her most frequent line to me,

"Ailyn ah Ailyn."

She's always the one who leaves her office specially just to see what had happened whenever she hears that I get into trouble.

Evil Right? :(

My cute strawberry, and this i1 guy. Junjie with his constipated face.

The never smiling Rahim, whenever in photos with me.

My cute teddy bear HOHOHO <3

My most unforgettable class girls, yeah only 6 of them.

4R2 should have more girls, seriously.

Ailyn, Ashley, Yiying, Cassandra, Jiaying.

So, where's Yunqi?

Oh well, Alexus, the extra, took her place hehe

ASHLEY TAN HUI YIN.
I love her, a lot.

Next up, PROM NIGHT'2011.

2011-10-29T00:29:00.001+08:00

Just wait.

You.

2011-10-22T23:04:00.002+08:00

Oh shit, you disgust me badly.
Honestly,
Ailyn.

Fan club

2011-10-17T23:55:00.003+08:00

ForeverKFC <3

2011-10-17T16:51:00.001+08:00

Bullshit. I kind of agree now, people don't change.

Blogfree

2011-10-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

Gonna upload some of my favorite pictures from graduation day in the next post.
When I'm free, of course.
Grown2dislike you a lot, oh well.
Study dude.
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE

Right

2011-10-06T01:01:00.001+08:00

What I just wanted to say was, I don't think we're right for each other.
What I just wanted to ask was, do you care?
Guess i'm right

Love?

2011-09-08T00:40:00.003+08:00

Do i really love you? I don't know, i'm not sure. Maybe i'm too young for love, i'm not mature yet. But this is how i really feel: I'm happy when you're around, I blush a little when i see you, smile to myself when i receive a text from you, explode on the inside when you say you love me too. Joy or depression, you are the first person i think of, to share with, to consult, to get some consolation. Maybe you don't know this, but the moment you left, i felt empty. It's like i'm lost in a maze, and i can't find myself. Just like what others said, i went crazy. I was crazy without you. I can lose the things around me, but not you. It's you that make me feel secure, it's you that make me feel complete. You're like, a part of me. Without you, it's a pain. It really do hurts, internally. But when i'm with you, it's a different feeling, it feels like the world only revolves around us. Everything around just gets pushed away and it's just us. All about us. Of course, in a beautiful setting, a lively and romantic atmosphere. That's it. Lastly, I only know one thing, one definite thing, you're my motivation to move on with life, for now and for the future. I want to marry you. Do i love you? Now, ask yourself.

sperm

2011-09-07T02:00:00.001+08:00

I like this.

I'm crazy

2011-08-31T00:53:00.001+08:00

This shouldn't be, indeed, as expected I was happy too early. Should stop thinking too much at times, not healthy for my mind.

You

2011-08-28T00:12:00.003+08:00

:)

2011-08-27T23:59:00.004+08:00

I miss you Anil.

2011-08-27T23:55:00.003+08:00

A,
"I miss that feeling… The feeling of being so deeply in love. The feeling of being lost in love. The feeling of being hugged so tightly by the boy I love so much and he loves me back the same way. The feeling when I first wake up in the morning, he will be the first person I think of and I will just smile to myself. The feeling when everyday, I just look forward to see him around and when we meet, we’ll just smile like fools to each other and feel the special feeling coming from each other. The feeling when I just look at him and my day will be made. The feeling when nothing else matters as long as I know he’ll be here for me and when I’m by his side. I miss these feelings so much."

Marcus Seet Ding Quan

2011-08-27T23:31:00.003+08:00

After hearing that you were somewhere near, was looking forward to clear things out with you, but you just ran off in hurry even though you are not really in one. It only shows how ball-less you are, dude. Probably it is to keep a clean image for yourself in front of your lovely girlfriend, but i don't give a fuck, after looking at what you have done to me. Shame on you, I'm getting my 2 middle fingers up your ass. So this is how you ruined my life, and there you are running and hiding. I've gotten my karma for many bad deeds i had done, i'm sure yours will come to, one fine day. For sure. I don't hate you, and i can't exactly do anything to you. But i really do hope to explode you in an oven. Fuck you

iPad rules

2011-08-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

i'm happy, my dad bought IPad. But i'm sad, I can't seem to concentrate any further. I keep taking photo :( Anyway I had been rushing through my d&t folio and presentation board lately and i'm really lagging behind a lot, need to catch up but no motivation. Anyone please? KILL ME.

Goodbye

2011-08-16T12:40:00.002+08:00

Don't you feel the agony when some people just don't want you around them anymore? Losing all, losing everything. I'm sorry to all, just gonna stay low and leave all of your lives. So much for my happy ending

Face it.

2011-08-16T12:39:00.002+08:00

Consequences.

13th.

2011-08-13T03:23:00.003+08:00

Really a thing to say,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAPA.
Now is 3.27a.m.
I'm at Kallang mac alone now with my laptop and my maths revision worksheets.
I'm awesome, and i love this brand new experience.
My phone's running out of batt oh shit

wondering dreams

2011-08-13T03:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder.
And, i wonder again, why do i wonder so much?
Everytime, i dream.
And, i keep dreaming, why do i dream so much?
I love dreaming, about the happy moments of my life.
And i wonder whether they will come true.
I want to edit my dream, make it memorable.
And just keep wondering why can't i make it reality.
I dream about my great achievements,
my aced results, the time we may spend together,
live harmoniously with friends and every fellow mates,
and move on with life filled with fun & unforgettable experience as an individual.
Ain't reality, ever.
I'm a loser for life

< 3

2011-08-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Tingsiang <3

Mofu

2011-08-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

being home alone isn't what really everyone wish for.
i detest it now, right now, when you need someone and he/she isn't there.
I still love you so much, but so what?
You don't care, no one will. What can i do?
the pain i go through even when breathing.
Unimaginable.
I hope you excuse me, give way to someone who just lost sanity.
You deserve to die

Jiajun's.

2011-08-01T00:33:00.004+08:00

Had a great tiring day celebrating Jiajun's.
Met Sean and we moved off tgt.
People swam, play pool, do shit,
I did 3 Physics MCQ and soaked my feet with franda for awhile, not excluding Clara.
Food is nice, but i left early.
Since the FUN had disappeared so sudden too.
Mood lost, bored. Went on a cab back with Deren and Nigel.
Met Xiaoqian and lovely, Xiaoqian came home with me YES.

HAPPYBIRTHDAYTANJIAJUN
(Right now, consider it as belated)

coolio

2011-08-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

Sensitivity vs. Insensitivity.
Isn't it frustrating when someone leaves without a particular reason?
To show dissatisfaction? Indeed.
Knives are sharp and they hurt you badly.
Knives.

you and always you

2011-07-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

Repugnance and Abhorrence.

ASRASR

2011-07-20T21:19:00.001+08:00

you're not an ass afterall <3

Bored

2011-07-20T21:11:00.003+08:00

Happy day.
I went North hehehehe SAM LIANG should read this.
Anyway, I had a great jog with Nasir, Haadi, Asraf, Zhong Kwang and SAM,
really wanted to give up halfway,
but they kept pushing and facing north was my motivation.
They were damn encouraging, seriously.
And I almost died.
Although they jogged 3 rounds and i only jogged 2,
it's still my greatest achievement because it's 3km 3 fucking km.
Proud of myself, i feel like i lost about 0.5 kg?
My mum's not at home now and i feel lost without her talking to me.
I ate lychee, need2do Social Studies now all the best ailyn.

Anil Riard, last warning.

2011-07-17T13:11:00.002+08:00

ELLERY FRANK FU hehehe
Isn't it so amazing when someone you truly loved, becomes someone you hate to the extreme? Someone you lived your life for, now becomes someone you wish to kill immediately. Hate is a strong word, I hate you. But I can't forget you. I'm wasting my tears on you, wondering why did you even choose to do this. You chose to hurt me instead. You said you love me and now you only prove that you were lying. Ain't you despicable?

Regrets

2011-07-11T00:16:00.003+08:00

Words that you say have many meanings depending on how people choose to interpret. And misinterpretation does occur. Although some words are pleasant to the ears, but there are words that hurt you deep down, killing you emotionally. As for me, because of certain words which I don't mean, I indirectly committed suicide. Words that you don't mean, don't say. Seriously, what are words if you really don't mean them when you say them? Correct, it's nothing. Meaningless, in fact. In addition, when frustration occurs coincidentally, words get splurt out uncontrollably, the ones that come out like bullets from your mouth, hurting another party. Just a warning to people out there. It just plainly shows immaturity. Things that we do, things that we say, reflects heavily on us regardless of whatever circumstances we are in. So always think before we act. Most importantly, there will always be a good/bad consequences after every action or even a word we do or say. Learning self-control is difficult, but it really makes people different.

2011-07-04T14:03:00.001+08:00

Cause boy you complete me.
Perfect two.
You can be the boobs,
and I can be the nipples.
BORED4LIFE. Chemistry = tough.
Wo bu xi huan

akucintakau

2011-06-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

Alif, you make me special for the time being, thank you.

miss you rn.

2011-06-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

XOXO

2011-06-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU SO.

Words are weak

2011-06-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?

Whyyyy

2011-06-11T20:54:00.003+08:00

I stole $2 from my mum's wallet to buy ice cream, greedy me. I'm tired these days, finding things isn't as simple as it is. My nail's polish is cracking and it's ugly now sigh I'm gonna do maths now till then bye

ARGH CB ANIL

2011-06-02T00:23:00.003+08:00

Had Chinese O's & i'm very certain that i have to retake it @ the end of the year. Why didn't i have enough time to complete my zuowenn?! Anyway, it's the holidays, i need clothes. urgh head pain. Have you ever got scolded by someone for nothing? Or get questioned by someone in a harsh tone for doing something that is not wrong at all? How did it feel? Horrible? Yes, i just felt it. Goodness gracious me

cheng yu xia si ren

2011-05-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

wo yao JIAN CHI DAO DI, nu li de ZENG GUANG JIAN WEN, cai neng zuo ge WEN ZHI BIN BIN de qiang zhe. Yi hou, yi ding neng CHU REN TOU DI. Ke shuo, shi jie shang mei you BU LAO ER HUO de shi qing, suo yi bi xu ZHUAN XIN YI ZHI, ke ku xue xi, jiu neng ZHUO YOU CHENG JIU. wo yi ding yao TUO YING ER CHU, CHU LEI BA CUI! wo yao ZI QIANG BU XI, fa shi bu neng ZI SHI QI YAN.

I hope for an A

2011-05-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

Hopefully, an A please, for MT O levels tomorrow, 30th May. I need A1. I need to believe in myself, pass my own obsatcle in order to pass every other one. Ailyn, go for it. I really hope to do it, i must reach it. All the best everyone

bald on the inside

2011-05-27T19:26:00.001+08:00

It's final, i'm doing the under cut. It's damn nice. Watch me shaveeeee

No holidays

2011-05-27T19:19:00.002+08:00

Here's holiday like no holiday. what eap huh what. ineed2sleepalot. can't it be like afternoon session? i really don't mind but i scare there's an increase in number of uprisings from students if i make that suggestion. so i sacrifice my beauty sleeeeeep, proud of me

cb hot

2011-05-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

woahhhhhh perspiring like a rainy weather BOOM

coolgirl81

2011-05-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

CB damn pretty

CB school

2011-05-27T19:06:00.001+08:00

ok great, i'm not in camp phoenix. i'm gonna fail my o levels, great. just great

fats ewww

2011-05-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

I'm fat. I feel sorry for the weighing machine :(

ser-rai-yers?

2011-05-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

hehehehehe i feel mean but whatever hehehehehehehehehe

die die die

2011-05-26T20:11:00.003+08:00

school's getting attrocious. not mentioning any school here, in case people malign me again. which school doesn't want a student to study hard? i should be in some camp thingy given my lousy results, but hey! they don't want to put me in. they want to watch me fail my o levels. what losers they are! roll thousands of eyes. they want me to fail, so that they can say it's because i never listen to them that's why get this kind of results. omg omg omg so cunning where got such people one? use this kind of despicable method and ruin someone's future. they all should die of a terrible death JUST SAYING

fashionista

2011-05-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

I want to be fashionable but i don't have a great body. Just like me saying I want to be a maths teacher but i don't have a smart brain. Sad life i cry about it everyday.

old man should retire

2011-05-23T00:21:00.005+08:00

I wish Mr Ong, MY NEIGHBOUR, retires. He's old and muddle-headed. He should really retire, he's damn old and useless. Maybe i should mind my own business, but i'm kind enough to mind his well-being. Like who will?! His wife? Oh yeah she's old too i suppose, unless he is some kind of chikopek. With that huge glasses and high socks of his, trying to act cute.

Cat dies

2011-05-19T01:06:00.001+08:00

Jealousy kills the fucking cat that's meowing in my head.

wtf

2011-05-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

"Do your hipbones stick out? Can you see your ribcage? Can you wrap your hands completely around your thigh? Do your collar bones stick out really far? Are your arms mostly pure bone? No? Well then. Don’t eat that"

Incorrigibly fat and no strong will in slimming down

fat

2011-05-19T00:58:00.001+08:00

Reasons why i want to slim down,

#26576. I feel so fat, i look at my body and just want to break down in tears.

Think

2011-05-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

Am i really happy? Is this what i really wanted? To spend my precious and valuable youth on 'fun' that's not worth it and brings about sufferings in the future? No i'm not happy, what am i thinking? Foolishgirl

Balletrina

2011-05-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

Miss those days.

Blogging is boring

2011-05-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

Life is a drag. That girl's a 24/7 attentionseeker. You might think this is pctkb, but fuck it. I MUST COMMENT ON HERRRRRRRRRRRR

2011-05-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

Life's like that. Tolerance has limits, you beat that. HOW ABOUT A ROUND OF APPLAUSE? A STANDING OVATION?

2011-04-29T21:28:00.002+08:00

#whatsthepoint ? we're going to die eventually. today i screwed my english, i didn't complete situational writing and wrote shit in my comp sad case #fml && because my mum saboed me yesterday, i have to reach home at 645 i'm damn tired naoooo, i going batam!!!

yes

2011-04-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

shop on9

2011-04-29T21:21:00.001+08:00

<3 http://thewhatisdope.com

omgggsotrue

2011-04-29T21:14:00.001+08:00

Anil Riard.

2011-04-26T23:11:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry, i don't have what it takes. Give up on me, i can never be your ideal. I hurt you unknowingly.

Restrained

2011-04-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

if only i can say i miss you right at this second, but no, something is restricting. There's a periphery.

our 1st minute

2011-04-26T23:07:00.001+08:00

If i could choose a day to go back to, that will be the 19th of Dec when i felt lucky for the first time

speak good english campaign

2011-04-26T23:03:00.001+08:00

Woebegone.

These days

2011-04-26T22:21:00.002+08:00

i don't feel good these days I have a huge bruise on my neck i think i scratched too hard it hurts :( I'm going to study hard for exams I'm going to stop disappointing my parents, the feeling is painful when you care for someone deeply. I can't go any further, have to reverse. I'm going to cut my hair soon no actually i don't dare wait for June's.

Empty spaces you caused

2011-04-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

Empty Space - Secret

I tried to empty my mind from the thought of you
You lived in my heart but
I Cried like a fool for you, looked for you
and i thought i could die

네가 내 마음에 자릴 비워서
네가 살던 내 마음에 없어서
바보같이 울었고
널 찾아 또 헤맸어
네가 없으면 죽을 것 같아서

Play this song and cry, i cried many times already

2011-04-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

With a family breaking school like NGEE ANN SECONDARY, my family is now in deep shit. Not trying to spike anything, but fuck this school. My dad wants to commit suicide, he ran out of house and he's nowhere to be found at the moment. Seriously, even such a small matter they want to find fault. Like seriously get a life. If they are so free, they would have called my mum long time ago. Mr Hazmi said he would pass the message to Mr Victor Ong to call her, but till now not even a single call. He said he would meet her, but nope, no news at all. Yeah, Mr Victor Ong - a discipline master. Now tell me, who's scared? My sister, whom has a diploma is psychology, has fully confirmed that the school is out to ruin my life and trying to pick on me. She's writing a report soon. There aren't any rules that states "no writing of people's name on hand." So yeah unless they implement this rule tomorrow, I'll follow. Which I doubt so, so they can fuck off. Get my father back you fucked up Ngee Ann

Past horror

2011-04-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Just leave me that way. Past tense used, you are my past, please don't haunt me.

2011-04-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

hairs

2011-04-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hairstyles.

Day3 smile

2011-04-15T22:50:00.007+08:00

HONGKONG DAY3
The hotel:

A mall:

Tall tower:

Macau's scenery:

Not all posted, tired. Day3 we took a ferry to Macau wooohoooo i vomitted though, i had sea sick

listen up yo

2011-04-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

Pretty pretty please, listen to 'Dream High' OST cb fucking naiseeee ^^

mum's coming down through the rooftop

2011-04-15T22:41:00.002+08:00

It's been long since i last posted. Well at least to me it is. The school reminded me of my blog, yeah i've got a blog. They probably want to see what are the things I type that leads to a reveal of a top secret. But noooo i'm not as naive as before already yo beat it I had to stay back till 6 today, for some stupid reason and my mum will be down in schoooool, take a lookout for her yaw the not say very young but want to act young lady

2011-04-07T16:40:00.002+08:00

I hate you. You. I can't find you anymore, goodbye.

2011-04-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

Hey I Blogged.
Have fun, stay tune to my Day3 in Hongkong. I got internal suspension on Tuesday. It sucked, like duhhh the school should seriously get a life for thinking that me and tingsiang are together lololololol

April fool

2011-04-01T22:32:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg whn u see this post, don be alarmed, immediately look behind you and and and and and and and and and and

APRIL FOOL.
my life is horrible today and it sucks. Hey, i'm ugly. APRIL FOOL, yeah it's getting boring.

Facts about u

2011-03-31T17:40:00.007+08:00

Bold it if that's true about you.
I am a male. I am a girl I am shorter than 5’4. I think I’m ugly sometimes. Everytime. I have scars. I TAN EASILY. I wish my hair was a different color. I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. I have a tattoo. I am self-conscious about my appearance. I have/I’ve had braces. I wear glasses. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. YAY I have more than 2 piercings. I have piercing in places besides my ears. I have freckles. I’ve sworn at my parents. I’ve run away from home. I’ve been kicked out of the house. I have a sibling less than six years old. I want to have kids someday. I’ve lost a child. I’m in school. I have a job. I’ve fallen asleep at work/school. I almost always do/did my homework. I’ve missed a week or more of school. I failed more than 1 class last year. I’ve stolen something from my job. I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation. Disney movies still make me cry. I’ve peed from laughing. I’ve snorted while laughing. I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. I’ve glued my hand to something. I’ve had my pants rip in public. I was born with a disease/impairment. I’ve gotten stitches/staples. I’ve broken a bone. I’ve had my tonsils removed. I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. I had a serious surgery. I’ve had chicken pox. I’ve had measles. I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day. I’ve been on a plane. I’ve been to Canada. I’ve been to Mexico. I’ve been to Niagara Falls. I’ve been to Japan. I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. I’ve been to Europe. I’ve been to Africa. I’ve gotten lost in my city. I’ve seen a shooting star. I’ve wished on a shooting star. I’ve seen a meteor shower. I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. I’ve been kicked where it hurts. I’ve been to a casino. I’ve been skydiving. I’ve gone skinny dipping. I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. I’ve crashed a car. I’ve been (water) skiing. I’ve been in a play. I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue. I’ve seen the Northern lights. I’ve sat on a roof top at night. I’ve played chicken fight. I’ve ridden in a taxi. I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I’ve eaten sushi. I’ve been snowboarding. I’m single. -ntbr- I’m in a relationship. -ntbr- I’m engaged. I’m married. I’ve gone on a blind date. I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper. I miss someone right now. I have a fear of abandonment. I’ve gotten divorced. I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. I’ve kept something from a past relationship. (not anymore) I’ve had a crush on a teacher. ( Mr Bakar :) ) I am a cuddler. I’ve been kissed in the rain. I’ve hugged a stranger. I have kissed a stranger. I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t. I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. I’ve snuck out of a friends house. I have lied to my parents about where I am. I am keeping a secret from the world. I’ve cheated while playing a game. I’ve cheated on a test. I’ve run a red light. I’ve been suspended from school. I’ve witnessed a crime. I’ve been in a fist fight I’ve been arrested. I’ve consumed alcohol. I regularly drink. I’ve passed out from drinking. I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. I’ve smoked weed. I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them. I’ve eaten shrooms. I’ve popped E. I’ve inhaled Nitrous. I’ve done hard drugs. I have had cough drops when I’m not sick. I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder. I shut others out when I’m depressed. I take anti-depressants. I have been anorexic or bulimic. I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. I’ve hurt myself on purpose. I’ve woken up crying. I’m afraid of dying. I hate funerals. I’ve seen someone dying. I’ve planned my own suicide. I own over 5 rap CDs. I own an iPod or MP3 player. I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. I own something from Pac Sun. I collect comic books.

hot pants

2011-03-31T17:40:00.001+08:00

2011-03-31T17:20:00.002+08:00

<3 The moment when you hug a guy and he hugs back tighter <3 Boys who always smell nice <3 Late night talk when you confess everything <3 Your heart thumps when i'm on your chest <3 when people think my jokes are funny <3 the times my parents understand me <3 when someone remembers the things i say. <3 singapore

Lol Boobs.

2011-03-31T17:07:00.002+08:00

2011-03-31T16:58:00.001+08:00

Day 2 Updated hehe